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mornin y'allz

Mornin' Grain.

I hope all is well.

eh...as well as can be i suppose. relationship problems...and kinda sick. but other than that, i cant complain!

I applied for another job yesterday, i'm hoping they call me, but i kinda doubt it. i think alot of the problem is people see i have my degree & its either not in the field i'm applying for or it makes them think i'm overqualified & wont stay at the job. its really annoying.

how about you, how goes it?

Pretty much the same situation. Pissed off a friend because I opened up to her and told her my fealings for her. I needed to say it though as I don't just to watch by the sidelines, and miss out on something that could be quite beautiful.

Didn't get a job I was going for and on top of the accident I have been lashing out at people left and right even though I really shouldn't.
As far the job search goes I am in the same boat as you. Over qualified or underexperienced. I understand that annoying problem

But hey it could be worse that accident could have killed me or them instead of fucking me up.

that all sucks...but hey, at least you tried! like you said rather than missing out on something. ive done it before too. not with many things but with a few. was just going to let shit go because i knew it was hopeless, but i said hey, i wont be able to live with myself knowing i didnt give it my all and my best shot, so i did. it didnt work out but at least i laid it all on the line and did everything i could have done, so i cant say i regret NOT trying.
but someone shouldnt be mad at you for saying your feelings. she may not feel the same in return, so it might be weird, but she shouldnt be pissed about it.

as for the accident, you're right. it could have been alot worse! glad no one was seriously injured. hope your back feels better soon tho!

things could always be way worse...

But It'd be alot cooler if they were better

I don't think I pissed her off. I think she is more afraid of losing me as a friend. But then again I'm not a woman so I have no clue. Knowing her like I do, all of her relationships have blown up in her face, so that may also have something to do with it as well.

She has become a very close friend, and I think that it is a great building block for a strong relationship. But yeah I had to speak my mind before I let life pass me by, and I would be left with the question of what if?

Things will go the way they are supposed to go.

As for the back it will get better eventually. I just wish the spasms would go away now, it feels really wierd and causes pain after a while.

Thank you Grain!

yeah, she prob is afraid of losing you as a friend. no one wants to lose a good friend, esp in a time when relationships have fallen appart. just keep being her friend like before & give it time & things will be cool again.

Indeed I will continue to be a friend like before. I mean I don't want to pressure her into anything. Maybe someday she will see me for me, and not think of the crap past. But if she doesn't, I can rest more easily knowing I let her know my feelings and not let them stay pent up.

Either way I think having her out of my life would leave a bigger void.

yeah, you're prob right...friendship is better than nothing even if you want more...then again its still hard to see someone you have those feelings for be with other people...been there done that & it sucks. but still better than nothing if you enjoy having them in your life.

glad I aint gotta deal with all that any more. I couldnt ask for a better wife. 100% perfection, for me.

Exactly. I probably wouldn't have let my feelings like that be known had she not complained about a guy standing her up.

To which I said "let me take you on a date."

I didn't want it to be known like that, but at the same time I would hate to see someone that awesome end up with a total loser and a douche.

Either way it changed things...

Love stinks!